Two months later..

So I'd be surprised if anyone still checks to see if I post, or reads my blog to begin with. Nontheless, it's been almost two months since I last posted anything. But I for some reason am inspired on this stiffling evening to just share my thoughts and, well my life and what's coming up.

Well for the last 3 years I've been planing with one of my bestfriends Kaitlin to go to Summit Pacific together. We had it all planned out. But I was a big loser a few months ago and kept telling her I wasn't going to come anymore, and then that I was going to come again, then that I wasn't. But I came to the decision, well with a huge push from God.. that I would go (permitting I get accepted). So I'll try and make you understand the huge amount of faith this is going to take: currently I have no money to my name, actually negative dollars to my name (I owe my parents, how does that always happen). Aswell, I'm not going to be able to make even half the amount of money I'm going to need for my program. You can understand that this is all so hard to just "sort of" not think about and trust it will work out. That's HUGE and I'm currently really struggling with that. I had considered forgetting about it all together, or just until next year. But God called me this year. Also I promised Kaitlin. I just don't want that whole year after you grad, when you just work and then end up just working for years before you figure out what's next. And I figure it's now or never. So give up on worrying!! (if anyone really knows me well, they'll know it's FLIPPING impossible for me not to worry)

So here I am, beginning of the summer, my grad on Friday, and a junk load of decisions that I can't worry about. Oh boy!

Inspired

So I decided with two days left before my PE trip to Nitinat, which my teacher has described as what to me can only mean hell. But in greater detail, I leave this Wednesday, May 3rd for six days and if you did your math right you guessed it, I get back on Tuesday the 9th. The Trail can only permit 18 people max at a time so our PE class has split up into two groups, one group canoes first and one group hikes first. At first, myself and my friends truely believed that the canoe group would be the easiest and therefore better so that's the side we chose. Well let me tell you as this semester has gone by the canoeing side has revealed more and more cons to it than our anticipated pros. So my excitement has dissipated and turned into pure anxiety I believe. The six days for me of canoeing, portaging ( 5-7hrs with a canoe on my back!), climbing ladders, and beach hiking. This trip for even the most athletic propose quite a challenge. As for this picture to the left. I searched the internet to find some amazing pictures that would make everyone envious that I was going and somehow that would make me feel better about going. But anyway, that's Tsusiat Falls ( sl. Sue-zee-it). I will actually bathe in that little peace of heaven. As for the man in the picture.. I'm not quite sure who that is. But yes, this is where I'll be for 6 days. I will be missed I hope, you'll notice I'm missing right? So to finish this up, please just pray for me I'd like to come back alive.

Scam?

(This is gonna be short because I'm supposed to still be boycotting.. which I don't see lasting much longer)

So.. with all of these new blogs popping up I can't help but ask myself the question, "Is it all just a fad?" I half believe, but then the other half of me that's already hocked to this whole scene disagrees. I think that really I'm the one that hopped on this bandwagon.. and the guilt of it all is just to much. But really, if people are doing what I'm doing at the moment, then it really all is just a fad. Okay, maybe I just don't complete understand this whole new world that I'm completely entranced with. But in all seriousness, I would love to hear EVERYONE'S thoughts on why these dang blogs are soooo flipping addictive, dare I say?

Oh no!

So don't get the wrong idea, because I am making myself look like a huge hypocrite I know.. BUT I just wanted to mention, tomorrow I am going to take my Road Test to see if I can get my "N". I'm a tad nervous becuase I never toke youngdrivers so I don't know all of the rules, but just keep me in a little prayer tomorrow. Thanks~

Still refusing...

The formation of this blog does NOT mean I have surcome to the blog world. I purely want to comment on all of your blogs! Get it?